Gone are the days I’m my own self. I now have to schedule time for myself or I won’t get it. What I miss about my life before children and things I think about while parenting 2 kids.
That’s terrible sounding and I’m compelled to explain that I have no regrets that I’ve had my children. My children are beautiful, smart, and funny. I can’t imagine my life without them. My daughter is a really smart daddy’s girl. As much as she gives us trouble, I know it’s just in her nature to be strong-willed. My son is another force to be reckoned with. I swear they’re going to have amazing tenacity and be very successful individuals in whatever they choose to pursue in life.
Sometimes, though, I think about life before them, and there are things I miss.
What I Miss About My Life Before Children:
While not necessarily in order, this is a list of what I miss about my life before children.
#1 Hot Coffee
I could finish a cup of coffee before it got cold. (This probably does fit in first place on this list)
#2 The Snooze Button
When I woke up in the morning, I didn’t have to rush to someone’s aid… there’s no snooze button on a screaming kid “Help! Mommy! Mommy!”
#3 A Small Purse
I miss not lugging around a diaper bag that weighs more than one of the kids, killing my shoulders in the process.
#4 Not Having to Plan Around Someone
I didn’t have to plan around nap times. (Although occasionally taking one myself is nice.)
#5 My Own Food
Not having to share my food. I love food and I don’t necessary like sharing it.
#6 Snack without Sneaking
Not having to sneak snacks. If I felt like indulging, I didn’t have to worry about whether or not someone else was supposed to have it.
#7 Small Sports Car
Driving a small manual-shift car everywhere. Now, I’m limited one day a month driving in my Autocross hobby.
#8 My Health and Smarts
I felt healthier (and smarter) – my issues seem never ending since having a baby. Thanks Hashimoto’s.
#9 Pleasant Dinner & Conversation
Dinner conversations weren’t full of convincing someone to eat dinner so they could have dessert. And eating M&Ms for dinner was acceptable.
#10 Spending on Myself without the Guilt
If I wanted something for me, I just got it. Now I think “… but I should probably spend money on x for them”. Then there’s the guilt when I take some time for myself.
I don’t regret having my children. I couldn’t imagine my life without them anymore. But, there are moments that I do miss the ease of coming and going as I please. The freedom from not being needed nearly constantly.
I’m hit with the reality that I took all those kid-free years for granted. I didn’t simply enjoy them.
When they get too big for needing mommy, and I get those freedoms back, I’m going to miss my babies. I imagine I’ll have to write a top 10 list of things I miss about having little ones in the house. For now, though, I’m in the thick of it wondering when I’ll enjoy a nice dinner out with hubby without worrying about the kids at home with the babysitter.